content?
2002-04-26
sometimes I wish I liked football but I 'm not a pack animal but it must be good the certainty, to think a player is god if he plays for your team but shite if he moves. and to never doubt this. I suppose its like religion, a losing of the self in a greater being. becoming human coral. I am going to become content, I dont need stuff, I could give all my stuff away and not be bothered, It seems to be experiences I crave. but I always want the next one not the one I'm having. want computer job get it dont want it want shift work get it guess wot? dont want it. I could repeat this a hundred times from the past and probably a hundred in the future. so I'm going to be content, and then I wont piss K off. I think im just too nosy to be content, I always want to see wants round the next corner so I will have to stop looking. dont want to end up like my bodach though, he stopped pubs, then stopped drinking then stopped. now he has stopped moving from his chair. I think soon he will stop. its very sad.
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