sometimes I wish I liked football
but I 'm not a pack animal
but it must be good the certainty, to think a player is god if he plays for your team but shite if he moves.
and to never doubt this.
I suppose its like religion, a losing of the self in a greater being.
becoming human coral.
I am going to become content, I dont need stuff, I could give all my stuff away and not be bothered, It seems to be experiences I crave.
but I always want the next one not the one I'm having.
want computer job
dont want it
want shift work
dont want it.
I could repeat this a hundred times from the past and probably a hundred in the future.
so I'm going to be content, and then I wont piss K off.
I think im just too nosy to be content, I always want to see wants round the next corner so I will have to stop looking.
dont want to end up like my bodach though, he stopped pubs, then stopped drinking then stopped.
now he has stopped moving from his chair.
I think soon he will stop.
its very sad.